jeez. today sitting in the sun was amazing in so many ways. I feel so grateful I am able to come to paradise and rejuvenize. Many people don’t have the luxury of ever leaving their country and for this I am incredibly blessed. Unfortunately as grateful as I am its very bittersweet. I can’t be so happy because I miss my hayati so much. I miss my best friend. The person I look forward talking to more than anyone. I feel so distant from her since I have been gone and that has really been hard. My princess is so important and its tough to be so far from her life. Not a second goes by that i am not thinking about you baby. What keeps me going is believing you are my sunshine. Its the closest thing I can find that makes me feel almost as good as holding you does. I truly appreciate you more and more everyday. Distance makes the heart grow fonder but distance makes the heart ache too I love you soooo much x Infinity Binity….ok binity isn’t a word but I wanted it to sound like alot. Please keep being safe and know I am constantly thinking about you and what you are doing. You make me smile sooooo much boo..